What If?

Different music speaks to me at different times in my life. My grandfather once said to me, "If you can learn the language of music well, then you can speak to anyone in the world." In Spanish of course, and while I kicked the piano as a young girl practicing against my will. But those words have stuck. Music really is a universal language. Some have a gift for it. Others try. But there is no doubt that all of us can feel the pain of dissonance or hum along to jolly tunes when the right arrangement of chords are present. The feelings that certain songs can evoke in the human spirit are endless.

At a time in my life when I don't wish to go into much detail about the problems and strange dysfunctional situations my extended family goes through, let me just point out that one song that I've heard time and time again has spoken to me in a different way. I've added it to my playlist as the first song on the bottom of this blog. It's Coldplay's, What If? I love Chris Martin. He is a genuine and profound artist. I just want to dedicate this moment and song to this particular time in my life. If you've never heard it before, sit back, play it loud with no outside distractions if you can, and just let the melody sink in. I can assure this song will pull at someone's heartstrings somehow. Maybe not. But at this time, it clings to mine. Who knows? In a few weeks, there will probably be a new song in its place. But for this moment, What If?

What if there was no light?
Nothing wrong, nothing right.
What if there was no time?
And no reason or rhyme.
What if you should decide
That you don't want me there by your side?
That you don't want me there in your life.

What if I got it wrong?
And no poem or song
Could put right what I got wrong?
Or make you feel I belong.
What if you should decide
That you don't want me there by your side?
That you don't want me there in your life.

Ooooh, that's right.
Let's take a breath, jump over the side.
Ooooh, that's right.
How can you know it if you don't even try?
Ooooh, that's right.

Every step that you take
Could be your biggest mistake.
It could bend or it could break
But that's the risk that you take.
What if you should decide
That you don't want me there in your life?
That you don't want me there by your side.

Ooooh, that's right.
Let's take a breath, jump over the side.
Ooooh, that's right.
How can you know it when you don't even try?
Ooooh, that's right.

Ooooh, that's right.
Let's take a breath, jump over the side.
Ooooh, that's right.
You know that darkness always turns into light.
Ooooh, that's right.